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Salam kak... maaf ganggu... berguguran air mata saya masa tengah msg ni... biarlah semua pandang saya dalam lrt ni. =(

Akak tahu saya jenis yang bertolak ansur kan... tapi kali ni saya tak mampu sangat kak =( Selama bulan puasa ni saya terkejar kejar seorang diri.. balik kerja.. hantar & ambil anak.... masak untuk berbuka puasa... masih menyusu walaupun kandungan dah 7 bulan.

Semalam saya terlalu terasa dengan suami bila saya tengah berebut nak masak anak menangis, saya mi...
Continue ReadingGreetings sis... sorry to disturb... my tears fall in the middle of the message... let everyone look at me in this LRT. =(

I know I'm the type of tolerance right... but this time I can't afford it too much sis =(during this fasting month I'm chasing myself.. back from work.. Sending & taking kids.... cooking for breaking fast ... still breastfeeding even though the content has been 7 months.

Yesterday I felt too much with my husband when I was fighting to cook my child crying, I asked my husband to take care of his child because he wanted to put in the fish, and then my husband raised his voice... he said....

" other women don't have a lot of fuss like you... for a while asking for help... don't know how to take care of your children.. Take care of the child.. He wants you not to want me...."

My caught at that time... while eating my child while drinking water while I was crying, my husband was in the hall playing with his phone.

I was really in tears at that time but I tried to be strong & remember in my heart. When I was eating during my tears, my tears came out non stop because I was sad that my husband said that, I miss my husband..... he saw me crying but he didn't say anything & didn't even convince me.

I packed the kitchen & went straight to the sejadah... Maghrib & isyak prayer... because too sad & stressed... when aqib whine asked to support me to hit his arms until he fell =(aqib cried... his head was swollen =(yes My God.... my child..... =(

I used to tell the sister that I was complaining about when I was the first child.... I'm afraid that the same thing will be back this time. Doctor said that if I'm a little stressed I can act out of control... without myself realizing it. =(

I wanted to message you yesterday, but I'm afraid that I'm busy. I fell asleep right there until I woke up at 5.10 minutes this morning... it's late... I quickly went to the kitchen to make milk for my husband & serve sambal fish with rice yesterday, didn't have time to heat up the rice because I didn't get it..

When the husband eats he says if you know how to heat up the rice next time wake up early... why so lazy!... Mom I always wake up to finish the dishes early & it as messy as you are.. Once again my husband made me too Sad sis. I can't afford to eat... feel like being be because I'm sad... I drink milk & drink and continue to finish my husband & child's work clothes......

Usually I go out early because I want to send my child first & just walk to the lrt station. My legs melted this morning.... everyone looked at me... I know my condition is not organized....

So true sis.... when other people say anything.. We are okay again... but when the husband says something that gives us down... we will be very weak.. Crying & innocent children will become victims Without ourselves wanting to do that.

I miss aqib... pity mama's child =(
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I've been talking to June. June previously through postpartum depression (complaining) during the first child's confinement due to breaking abstinence & husband is not concerned.

& now June is doing the treatment to restore the mindnya.

Find out..... this complaining is a silent killer that no one is aware of the sudden changes.

Even the mother in confinement who is complaining will never realize what she's doing.

For husbands... please manage household matters together if you love your wife.

Sometimes when you hear one by one's story.... you only want love & care from your husband.

For June... don't worry dear... strengthen your heart... Allah is there... tyme pregnant even though easily touched... but June must be strong for the child in the content... pity the baby will be more sad because his mommy is sad .

Smile a little =) hugs *

To the mommy who read this & give the words of spirit for June.. Thank you so much =) June needs us....

Copyright @ @[1416700617:2048:Nazira Nazir] for @[151329642013884:274:9bulan10hari]. Not allowed to copy paste!Translated

Every morning reminds me of all the wrong dreams I had been chasing all my life, until I found the right one - you.

5 years since we are married, 6 since we are dating, 11 since we known each other

Marriage is a different ball game from dating altogether, it's a game you cannot back out or give up easily, it seeks lots of patience, understanding, tolerance and ultimately love to keep a marriage going.
To err is to human, and I hope you forgive me for all these times I had let you down, disappointed you, or simply wasn't good enough, but the intentions was never to hurt you.

Sure, there are someday I want to take a Cricket Bat and swing it to your face, but the thought of you outmanning me and taking that same bat and swinging to mine always stops me from doing the foolish act (just kidding ) but what I'm trying to say is, nothing ever worth having is ever easy, and I would want to persevere and be there for you till the end of times

The basis of failed marriage had always been the unrealistic pursuit of perfection, but the basis of a successful marriage is the overlooking of flaws, forgiving the mistakes, and accepting the imperfections, and if I haven't been the best Husband (I don't think I had) I can and only try harder from now on.

I'm sorry for all the things I had done to make you unhappy, or even stop you from doing from what is making you happy, I'll do my best to support you from now on.

Happy 5 years anniversary @sylsylnoc , I love you till the sands of time run out, and if there's a next life, I'll still be with you. #noragrets

I love you, @sylsylnoc , forever and ever

P.s - no clubbingz plz

Open Letter To Anas Zubedy - A Counter-Letter to Dr. Zakir Naik

Dear Dr Zakir,

I have to apologize for the outburst of my fellow countryman Anas Zubedy who, in his latest blog posting, has asked you to leave Malaysia. I am here to write to convince you otherwise: that not only should you not leave, but to lengthen your duration of stay, diversify your place of ceramahs, return more often and intensify your fervour in the kind of dakwah that you do: a most non-vindictive, non-antagonistic, scholarly and, unfortunately (the one that became the central raison d’etre of some people’s hatred towards you), full of indisputable truths in them. And I too will give you my reasonings.

Now I doubt though that this letter will be read by you, or even reach you, as compared to Anas’ who probably have his minions try send HIS letter to you. If as such, let’s just regard my letter as a rhetorical one---that it could/should be read by others other than you.

I apologize for Anas because you might think that his words represent the whole country in its entirety or are some kind of epitome of the general Malaysian psyche. Nothing could be further than the truth. You see, we Malaysian Muslims are a motley crew of different characters and idiosyncrasies, right from the most pious and God-conscious to the most despicably and spiritually turpitude. And you know what?

Everyone has access to the internet. Everyone can write their thoughts about Islam. Everyone can claim to be a voice of the religion and, if one is equipped with some kind of babyface- ness and some applauds from some islamophobes or liberal muslims, who knows---one might even get to be popular and well-read.

Anas does not belong to the former category. At least you can realize that much by now just via reading. And I am not saying he is spiritually corrupt either, being well-mannered and having pleasant demeanour. But you can well sense his ... lack of knowledge.

His lack of Islamic Spirit, of a Mujahid, of one who cares least if the religion is going to get some beatings or not. His concern is not that. Rather, his concern is more towards what his readers would think of him, the majority of which are made up of non-muslims and liberal islam.

For how are you expected to write if you are writing for those who would like to listen more about Islam not as one which the prophet SAW has brought, but as one which could be modified to fit in the whims and fancies of the general non-muslim populace.

He does not understand Aqidah, as you can well see his stand on Syiah. He does not conform to the idea of Islam being “ya’lu wa laa yu’la alaihi”, as promulgated by the prophet SAW. To him, all religions are the saaaaaaame. All have equal merits, and Islam is just one of the many numerators pegged on the denominator of goodness.

Contrary to his insistence of being an avid Quran reader (he even has some study group making tafsirs of Quranic verses. I am not joking!), he doesn’t understand the Qur’anic spirit. Or, at most, glance off the many diverse Qur’anic verses on faith and life in general and only pick ones which he thinks would be fodder enough for his general blog readers. I shudder to think of the kind of misinformation, of selective facts and of a general depravity of truths that his non- muslim readers have been exposed to all this while.

Now why is there a phenomenon such as Anas Zubedy? One word:
Born Again.
(OK that’s two)

You see, a 60’s, 70’s Malaysian Islam (of which Anas’ childhood was immersed in) is not the Malaysian Islam that we see now. Those were the years of Mokhtar Dahari, of Malaysian women not donning tudung, of “Guinness Stout Baik Untuk Anda” advertisements still embellishing the local malay-held Utusan newspapers.

In general, a widespread era of neo-jahiliyyah. Then in the 80’s-90s (Anas’ formative university years) there was an explosion of kesedaran, and students coming back from al-Azhar and Madinah University began to convey to their parent folks that hey! We’ve been having it wrong all these times.

There is no Bomoh Jampi. Mandi Safar is wrong. Donning the tudung is wajib. And prayers is a must, not something optional. There was an almost overnight transformation due to being exposed to the truer Islam as opposed to the malay-flavoured Islam prevailing then.

But some things steadfastly refuse to be swept along in the winds of change. City folks preoccupied with chasing the hedonistic dreams and life, and youthful folks (university ones, the kind that Anas was surrounded with) just on the verge of being exposed to newly-found breaking of religious shackles ignored this change.

Theirs was the era of Bakat TV. Of the discotheque. We don’t need no freakin’ Islam to tell us what we can do and what we can’t.

But the winds are stronger. Come the new millennium, people like Anas look around them and find that they have been left behind. Far, far behind. They feel a need to catch up, to be shoulder-to- shoulder with those who carve out a name championing a most noble cause. But what to do?

They don’t have any Islamic trainings. Some have left religion way, way back before. In universities and colleges, while the other students enjoin one another in their usrahs or khurujs or ceramahs, they were busy with dating, with Abba and Bee Gees, with discos. So apart from their primary school years of learning the Juz-‘Amma from their grandfathers or the local ustazs, they really have NOTHING by way of Islamic advancements to be put onto their spiritual resumes.

Beginning from the 2000’s, we see a proliferation of people who you SENSE come from a more liberal society and upbringing but writing about Islam. Suddenly overnight we have these Born-Again writers flooding the internet firstly to show that they THEMSELVES are also champions of Islam and secondly that hey! Read me! I have come with the kind of Islam that is both modern, progressive, accommodative which even the non-muslims love.

Seriously, don’t we wish that we have THESE kinds of people to face Abu Jahal and Abu Lahab during the prophet’s time (SAW)?
But commensurate with Anas’ path towards full righteousness is his being influenced by Quranist ideologies. He is surrounded by people like Syed Akbar Ali, Malaysia’s most vocal proponent of no-hadith, qur’an-only beliefs.

A lack of basic fiqh, fused with a rejection of the prophet’s hadith and general taqwa, and you have a most explosive case of Islamic Misinformation you can ever perceive with two brains.

So there you have it, Dr Zakir. Don’t take too much heart, now that you know certain histories and backgrounds. Onwards to the allegations that Anas have got on you.

1. YOUR PRESENCE IS CAUSING A FAMILY DISPUTE

Seriously, I don’t even feel a need to comment on this. It is self-explanatory, self-revealing. According to that other Anas, Anas bin Malik (RA), the Messenger of Allah (صلى الله عليه وسلم) said: " I wish that I could meet my brothers." The Sahaabah (RAA) asked: "Aren't we your brothers?" He replied: "You are my Companions, but my brothers are those who will believe in me without having seen me."

What can you say, Dr Zakir, some people regard their relationships to the multitude of non-muslims as his family much more than you and me ever are?

As for Anas, yes please be comforted by your “family” here. As for me, my brothers and family are ...err... quite different from yours. Before anyone can point a finger saying that I am against Muhibbah of the races, I am not.

I have a multiracial neighbor that I play games with, drink coffee with and argue with on whether Q could obliterate the Borgs in one fell swoop. But family? Brothers? I only follow the conjunction of the Qur’an: “Verily the believers are brothers.” (al Hujurat-10)

2. YOUR PRESENCE IN MALAYSIA HAVE MEGATIVE IMPACT ON NON-MUSLIMS TOWARDS ISLAM

Now I am scratching my head on this one. Is this a statistical study or what? A scientific poll? Which authority has the audacity to conclude something like this, and if so under what premises? And let me pose a counter questioning to Anas: Name one Islamic Dakwah personality which, if brought to Malaysia, would, in your mind, have a POSITIVE impact on the non-muslims towards Islam?

Hello... None, OK? Positive impact means what. That they nod their heads in appreciations? That they show they like it by purchasing Islamic paraphernalia?
Anas said that your presence is getting non-muslims further away from Islam. This is where Anas’ confusion reaches its peak. He equates people disliking Islam as a sign of failure.

If so, Anas lacks the knowledge of Seerah big, big time. He lacks the understanding, not to mention the spirit of Islamic Dakwah big, big time. (By the way how much does Anas know about dakwah, apart from him being able to SPELL it? Has he ever been in khuruj?)

When the prophet preached Islam in Mecca to Umaiyyah bin Khalaf, Walid bin Mughirah, Utbah bin Rabi’ah and others, what kind of response is Anas expecting to be produced by them. The same as his non-muslim and liberal muslim readers accord him now, with applauds and compliments?

Is Dakwah to be done the result of which should be praises and accolades rather than a general feeling of discomfort onto the ears of those whom the dakwah is given?

Have you, Dr Zakir, started to feel a sense of ... inadequacy in the understanding of the Islamic spirit prevailing on this person now?

3. COMPARATIVE DEBATES DO NOT WORK IN MALAYSIA

Actually Anas, they do. What you PERCEIVE as a non-level playing field as far as dakwah is concerned in Malaysia, is actually a phenomenon best described in one of the talk events of Dr Zakir Naik where after expounding the inconsistencies of some biblical texts, one christian questioner stood up and asked,

“Dr. Zakir. Why do you insult us christians? What have you got against the bible that you are saying that their passages are wrong? Why do you say that the bible is not from God?”

And Dr Zakir answers (Anas pay attention carefully). “If I tell you that 2 X 2 is 5, what do you have to say to that?” And the man answered “That you are wrong.”

To which Dr Zakir replied, “are you insulting me? I say 2 x 2 is 5 and you say I am wrong?” The man said. “I am not insulting you. I am just saying you are wrong”.
“Like wise”, said Dr Zakir. “Neither have I insulted the bible nor have I disrespected it.

What I am saying is it is just wrong. And here is why I have said so .... (proceeds to read and analyse the conflicting verses). Now how can God be the author of some conflicting facts? And if you have scientific, logical, mathematical and factual proofs that you can provide that disproves my thesis, then by all means produce it. If it is sensible enough, I am more ready to declare that I am mistaken in this.”

Anas, if it is not Zakir Naik who could highlight to the masses things like these, then who would. You? Would you like to take his place? No. Notwithstanding, with the kind of “with charity towards all, malice towards none and love for all ...” mentality permeating in you, never in a million years would you be so factual.

You would sooner hide verses such as “Innad-Deen indallah al-Islam” rather than tell your non muslim listeners what Allah says.
Then what would you say in from of Allah on the day of judgement if asked, “O Anas, on earth you played with your friends. Joked with them, socialize with them. But never once did you attract them to Islam.

Even if you think you did, it wasn’t via the way of the prophet. Never once were they attracted to the Quran because never once did you point out that whatever they read other than the Quran was wrong and not from me”.

Now I might sound I am in some level of bigotry here but upon closer scrutiny, I am not. The christians or people from other denominations have equal rights to say that “Actually you muslims are wrong according to our dogma. According to our beliefs, you all will enter hellfire.” And I am okay with that. And get this:

SO IS OUR ENTIRE GOVERNMENT, MUSLIM POPULACE AND ISLAM IN GENERAL. We do not mind you to think that WE are the unsuccessful ones in the hereafter, just like we think YOU are. But will that harm perpaduan?

Not at all. After all this, we still go to our friends’ daughter’s weddings, sit and sip Stevia-laced coffee in any kopitiam, and fight with one another whether Man U is better than Liverpool or imbibe uniappam in any banana-leaf restaurant.

What is preventing us from having our Mokhtar Dahari-Soh Chin Aun-Santokh Singh moments are NOT religion. Definitely NOT Islam. They are politics, and we have diverse ways to view THAT one. Speaking of which ...
Sorry Dr Zakir. Not much comment in here, apart from giving my two-cents view from a religious standpoint. I am neither a politician nor like politics that much, but I do NOT conform to the plan of making our top-most potential people to take over the premiership who have come from a background of homo-sexuality.

Any persons, entities and politicians who conform to this should not be agreed upon. Period. That’s my entire political thoughts wrapped in 2 sentences. Clever, Sensible and Far-looking is what I is.

Lastly Dr Zakir, do not take things too hard, as I said. Perchance if you could be visiting (on your way) to a small dilapidated coffee stall by the roadside in Keramat, maybe you can stop by and I can interest you with some home-made cheese pisang goreng and the best lemang this side of the hemisphere? No?

Sincerely,

Your brother

J Rizal

ps: check for adherence to Anas’ rules for Anonymous writers:-

4. Your presence is slowing down Malaysia’s political revitalization

1. No profanity---Checked
2. Seditious – nope.
3. Don’t play God --- Na’uzubillah.
4. Sweeping statements – Like, “You cause family disputes” kind of sweeping statements?
Nope.
5. Facts as opposed to opinions – Whaaaat? I thought I should be asking you that, especially
with that “Your presence here is causing negative impact” thing

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Happy Birthday Khar Fye!

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Also the opening song for Napolean Dynamite.
(TINA, COME GET SOME HAM!)

This is a THANK YOU to everyone who subscribed.
I feel like it's a suitable song for everyone of you for being so great!
=)

I'm sorry about my bad handwriting, and lets face it, a bad rendition of this lovely song.

I hope Jack White and his fans wont 'icky thump' me for this.

Enjoy, and give me some of your tots, Napolean.

PS: I now officially have a sore throat, which is why i sound a tad bit like the toad from Wind In The Willows.
Whatever happened to that anyways?

Ok, i'll stop talking now.
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fall is here, hear the yell
back to school, ring the bell
brand new shoes, walking blues
climb the fence, book and pens
i can tell that we are gonna be friends

walk with me, suzy lee
through the park, by the tree
we will rest upon the ground
and look at all the bugs we've found
then safely walk to school
without a sound

well here we are, no one else
we walked to school all by ourselves
there's dirt on our uniforms
from chasing all the ants and worms
we clean up and now it's time to learn


numbers, letters, learn to spell
nouns, and books, and show and tell
at playtime we will throw the ball
back to class, through the hall
teacher marks our height against the wall

and we don't notice any time pass
we don't notice anything
we sit side by side in every class
teacher thinks that i sound funny
but she likes the way you sing

tonight i'll dream while i'm in bed
when sill thoughts go through my head
about the bugs and alphabet
and when i wake tomorrow i'll bet
that you and i will walk together again
cause i can tell that we
are going to be friends

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The Scientist - Coldplay

Come up to meet you
Tell you I'm sorry
You don't know how lovely you are
I had to find you
Tell you I need you
Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets
And ask me your questions
Oh let's go back to the start
Running in circles; coming up tails
Heads on a science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Oh take me back to the start

I was just guessing at numbers and figures
Pulling your puzzles apart
Questions of science; science and progress
Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me
Come back and haunt me
Oh and I rush to the start
Running in circles, chasing our tails
Coming back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Oh it's such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I'm going back to the start